Remember when I told you all that I was going to do a comparison painting to the shimmery one I did a couple of weeks ago. Well, today I did that very thing but there were more differences than the type of paint I used.

It’s been a difficult day dealing with the VA for one thing. It is like being in a matrix you can’t escape. And I’m on steroids. So rage that needed a creative outlet.

It’s a hot mess, y’all. I just kept adding more and more and I’m not happy with the results. When I calm down, I’ll try again. But here they are, just so you can see what happens with too much energy and anger and a ton of distractions. I swear, no one ever calls or texts til your trying to be in a creative zone!

The composition is all wrong, I took too many shortcuts, etc. But its fun playing around. I can make a mess and clean up is easy too. Maybe I should try painting something real instead of trying to copy a YouTube video.

These steroids are now on my last nerve. I’m hungry, I’m angry, I feel like I’m coming out of my skin. I’d chew another piece of gum but I’m afraid that I’d bite it off! I better wear my night guard tonight!

Im getting the runaround by the VA, they say call this place and when I do they say call that place and by the way, you need to be established as a traveling vet, but in Ft Worth, they don’t even know what that is. So I tried to find a VA advocate, but I got the newbie who had no idea what to do with me. In the end, I sent a message on my patient portal and they actually write back and said they will tell my doc and get me a plan of care soon. I hope so, because I’m about to be out of pills. What if I start hurting again? Hopefully, that doesn’t happen.

Anyhoo, I promised and now I’ve delivered and when I calm down I may take another stab at it. Hopefully, I’m learning some techniques that will help me when I try to paint something from nature. Colorado is so awe-inspiring.

Oh, I have to share the little guy Dave and I saw on our walk today.

Yes, I know there are some typos, but I can’t get the editor to cooperate and let me back in to fix them. Y’all may have to follow me over to Substack soon if things don’t improve around here! 😉