I did not see a Word of the Day Challenge today, so I’ll just tell you how the week has gone so far.
I feel like I’ve been at church as much as I’ve been home! Who knew that taking a masterclass in creative writing would open so many doors and get me so involved with my church! I’m in a Bible study group on Wednesday mornings, I had my first practice back with the choir tonight, and my grief counseling meetings start on Monday! We were back in regular service live on Easter Sunday, but this coming Sunday, I’ll be performing with the choir for the first time in two years since I did that summer session…or maybe that was three years ago. Let me tell you, I’ll be faking it til I make it for that first time! At practice tonight, I was so lost because they just jump in, and I haven’t heard any of the music, I don’t know my part, and they can’t stop to help one individual person. I sing alto, and its been ages since I harmonized in a habitual manner. I was assured there is no need to worry.
Bible study turned into a grief counseling of sorts when I was commenting on a particular passage from the book we are studying, The Will Of God. Afterwards, two or three people stopped by to offer help and condolences, which was so sweet. It is nice to have a group of ladies who care, to talk to about these things. It’s also wonderful to have a place where I feel welcomed and can have relatable conversations.
I need to be involved, I feel everything I’m doing is right. If it’s not Dave’s thing, that’s ok. I’m doing this to heal. I’m doing this to develop a better relationship with God. I feel like I belong. I’m meeting more people from church and maybe I’ll even make some new friends. My best friends are both living far away. I love talking to them when I can and the occasional visit, but I need people around me that are experienced and can provide appropriate counsel. These people are teaching me to be kind to myself and providing a safe space for me to cry if I need to, or just be a friendly ear if i need one. They are giving me purpose. They are nurturing my soul. I think right now, that’s exactly what I need. 😊