Personally, I’m finding hard to celebrate right now. There’s a dark cloud over me, and Dad is not doing well. On top of that, I just found out that my sister-in-law’s mom may not be with her much longer. She is traveling to Idaho tomorrow and just hopes to make it in time. How am I just supposed to sit around with my remaining family members and celebrate Thanksgiving while all this is going on? Yet all around me, are celebrations in my other life, the one that has been pushed aside while all this is going on with my dad. My niece-in-law is pregnant, and my brother-in-law’s son is is about to be married. I need to be present for them. Our dear friend is turning 60 soon and his daughter wants to throw him a party. Of course, they expect us to be there. but all I feel like doing is withdrawing and crying.
I know I have to get it together, for my family and friends, for my marriage.
So, at church this morning, they talked about celebrating the King of Kings. (this was before we went to visit Dad and take him his lift chair). I was calm in the knowledge that Jesus will come again, and that God is in control, yet my thoughts kept drifting to the fact that we were going to visit Dad. How would he be feeling? Is he sleeping, eating, sad? Then I get there and find out no, he is still not sleeping at night, he was crying yesterday and no one could figure out why. At least he is eating well. For some reason, they could not get him to drink anything. Why is that? So, I called Micheal, and he said he was going to give him something different tonight to help him sleep. I think the doctor needs to be called in, because of the other things going on.
Lord God, please let me rest in the knowledge that You know what is best for my dad, and You will wrap Your arms around him and give him some comfort. I know my brother is supposed to go visit him later, when he wakes up. Maybe Sean will go as well. Maybe that will cheer Dad up.
PS-traffic is a nightmare, because they have the freeway shut down. Traffic was being diverted to the route we tried to take, so the trip lasted twice as long as usual. I hope they come back with some more positive news.
To distract myself, I am watching the Rock and Roll Hall of fame. I can at least celebrate the history of some of my favorite musicians. 🤗💕