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WOD Challenge and #SOCS 4-25-20 Only the Lonely

My dad Gus

My dad Gus at my house one Sunday-I live 5 minutes away

Most of you who follow my blog know that I struggle with feelings of guilt and worry about my dad and whether he is lonely all the time, so it won’t surprise you to learn that I have decided to solve this problem by spending even more time with him lately, which means my work at home is starting to suffer.

It’s ok, I mean, I am not earning any money from my writing anyway, hard as I have tried. I get no real validation from anyone other than my blogger friends and a few people on Medium that my writing is helpful or having an impact on anyone other than myself. I share it with others hoping to make a difference, yet I still feel like if I were not writing, no one would miss me or care that much.

I’m not fishing for comments or compliments here, just being real. The truth is, I can’t bear to think of my dad being alone or feeling lonely, so this week I have visited with him five or six hours a day three days so I can come home at night and know he feels better having had the company. Sean (my oldest son who lives with him) gets home from work around five or six, so I know he’s ok at night. Yes, he has his life alert button, but that is for an emergency, it does give him peace of mind (and me) but it does not combat loneliness.

Honestly, during this pandemic, Dad has become my bff because other than my husband, he is the only other person I’ve spent quality time with. We take care of small household chores, play some pool, watch tv, and play Words With Friends together. I fix his lunch, and go to the store for him, take him to his dr. appointments and more. The only other solution that I can think of is to have him move in with us, and I don’t think he is ready for that.

He may be 85 and suffering from Parkinson’s disease, but he is very much alive and feeling well, despite all the meds he has to take to accomplish that. His health is otherwise pretty normal, although he has a cardiac condition and elevated blood pressure, his shoulders are frozen, and that limits his movements. His severe tremor makes doing anything challenging. He needs help, and I am available so for me, this is the best solution. All of this to say, yes I worry about the virus, but it won’t stop me from being there for him. He was always there for me, my mom, and the kids. It’s my turn to give back.

Loneliness kills too. It kills the spirit, the self esteem, and the self worth. I refuse to let that happen to Dad. So, if I have to schedule my writing for earlier or later, whatever it takes, that’s what I’ll do. If I have to take a break from it for a while, it will still be here when I’m ready.

This post was brought to you by the Word of the Day Challenge prompt lonely and the SoCS prompt for today. Thanks for listening and have a blessed Saturday everyone!

The prompt word for today also made me think of this song:

 

 

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Word of the Day Challenge

Good morning everyone! Sorry I have been absent for a few days, I have been doing a bit of “Spring cleaning” albeit late! We have acquired some new furniture and other items from Dave’s mom’s estate and I have been trying to make a place for everything, while cleaning out some of our unwanted items in the process.

Yesterday, I took a trip down memory lane when I opened a box that was full of kitchen stuff we had in our house in Alvarado! That was more than 10 years ago! Well, it was a shoebox, but still! There were all sorts of pictures, mostly Christmas ones from friends and family that share their holiday portraits as a Christmas card, magnets that used to cover our fridge-probably from many fridge’s ago, junk drawer items…you name it! Pens, pencils, my old guitar capo, a package of emergency ponchos, glue sticks, and correction tape. Good grief, how is it still hard for me to toss this stuff? I’ll probably wait until the kids can look through it before I do.

I had to clean the office a bit, it was becoming a catch-all and I really need it to become the OFFICE again, lol! We need to get rid of the twin bed we stuck in there-just in case-and make room for me to have a “proper” desk…I’m tired of writing at the dining table! Then I had to clean out the old buffet, and some storage cabinets to make room for a different buffet. Whew, I’m tired all over again just thinking about it!

Well, as some of you know, my long-awaited knee surgery is coming up on Friday, I might be absent again, depending on the time it takes to recover. I appreciate your patience and prayers as I get through this next (and hopefully last) surgery for awhile! In the meantime, I have to go get a physical tomorrow and then the surgery center might possibly want me to have pre-op…maybe they will take the bloodwork from the physical-we’ll see. Tomorrow evening is our usual “date night dinner,” I’ll be looking forward to something spicy!

Today is my visit with Dad, we will have lunch and play some pool, and speaking of pool, my swimming pool is getting quite cool, even though the temperature outside is still hot, the nights are cooling down and the days are getting shorter. I hope you all have a wonderful Wednesday…ciao for now!

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