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SoCS 12-04-21 The Guest Room

(Not my guest room)

Well, it seems we will be doing some hosting this week with company coming in from out of town for my Dad’s service, so here’s my response to Linda G Hill’s SoCS prompt-which is this: Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “rev.” Use “rev” or find a word that contains it. Have fun!

When Dad was staying here with me, he was in our guest room. Now, with Patsy and Tom coming in next week from Tulsa, we needed to revert the room back to it’s original state. The photo shown is from Unsplash, i wish my guest room looked like this, but we make do with what
we have. 😉

We donated all of his medical equipment to Glenview Wellness and Rehab, where he stayed for his rehab. They were happy to get it. ☺️

Then, I bagged up all of his clothes and shoes and put them in the closet until the boys can go through them, before I donate them to Mission Central. Dave and I went and bought a beautiful frame for his pictures we will be using for the service. Dave also purchased a lovely guest sign-in book for the memorial. My other cousin will be staying with my brother, Kevin, who is also revving up for company. His batchelor pad needed sprucing up, so he has a friend helping with that while Dave and I are stuck at the house waiting for the delivery of the urn.

Funny story, I received an email saying that I missed the delivery, believed it without checking, and gave my bank and address information to what turned out to be a scam posing as the USPS, which resulted in someone charging my credit card over $500! Don’t worry, it’s cancelled and the bank has issued me a new one. 🙄

It’s weird how when the situation calls for it, you have to quash your emotions and go on autopilot to get everything done that needs to be done in preparation for events such as this. On Thursday, I’m liable to be a basket case, but today, I just feel determined to get my house in better shape, I feel accomplished at giving some of Dad’s things to people who can really use them and not somewhere they will have had to buy them. ☺️

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SoCS 11-27-21 I Still Have Questions

Linda Hill challenges us today with this prompt: “Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is ‘golly gee.’ Use ‘golly gee’ or another interjection that displays the same sentiment in your post. Enjoy!”

Why is God torturing me with these horrible thoughts that make me scared Dad was treated badly the few days he was at the new home? I can’t help it, and it would be too late for Dad, but if I’m right, maybe it would save someone else from suffering.

Golly gee, I know it sounds morbid, but hear me out.

1.) How did they get him to eat oatmeal, eggs, and hot dogs when I could barely get soup down him at Hurst Plaza? Were they forcing him to eat all that or just plain lying?

2.) Why was he scared to sleep in the bed? I assured him there were cameras and alarms so he couldn’t fall.

3.) Why did Micheal say he had been there with him that morning and seen him walk so much if he told me in a text that he was having JJ walk him after supposedly Dad got 5 hours of sleep? My husband said he could smell alcohol on Micheal’s breath when we got there. He didn’t find that odd, but how does someone with two care homes and a home of his own, with kids and a wife who is recovering from surgery find the time? I know he is super busy and probably stressed out, but does that seem professional to you?

4.) Why did Stephanie mention asking him if he felt abused in their home, tell me he said he didn’t, but said he said he had been abused at Hurst Plaza on the night he passed away? I never asked that question. Why did she feel the need to tell me that on such a devastating night? PS-I never suspected abuse at either the rehab, or the skilled nursing place, they were simply understaffed.)

5.) What if they pushed him too hard and his heart just gave out?

6.) Why did they do CPR when he was a DNR? They claim not to have been able to find the paperwork, but it was right there in Micheal’s office, he just hadn’t been there for three days.

Maybe its just my grief talking, but I cant get these questions out of my head. If I thought my poor daddy suffered the last 4 days of his life, I would die myself. Should I act on it? Should I let it go, get counseling from my pastor? Dad is being cremated, so there was no autopsy, and everyone would have thought I was nuts to bring it up the night he passed away. In fact, the questions came early the morning after, when I couldn’t sleep. I’m still not eating or sleeping well, and I’m trying to pray, and block these thoughts out. I don’t look forward to retrieving his clothes and chair, because I’m afraid I would be tempted to bring it up, besides, the thought of going back there isn’t pleasant anyway. That’s where I lost my dad. Of course it’s going to cause me more grief.

I know I’m not supposed to have any guilt or regrets, and trust that they were the wonderful place we thought they were, but my tortured mind won’t let me rest. Is this a stage of the grieving process, anger and questions, or do you think I have legitimate cause for concern? Like I said, it can’t bring my daddy back, but if I’m right, it could save someone else’s loved one from suffering the same fate. The last time I saw Dad, he was cold and pale, so tired he couldn’t keep his eyes open, and just wanted to get back in his recliner and sleep…he could barely walk with assistance, JJ practically had to carry him back to his chair. I’m sorry to be bringing all this up, but I need answers or I’m going to go crazy.

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Multi-Prompt Post 11-20-21

Our SoCS prompt today is: Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “black, gray, and white.”Use one, use ’em all. Bonus points if you use all three. Have fun!

Visiting Day

Photo credit: Unsplash

Gray was his hair, white was his face

Black was my mood

When I left the place

“What are they doing?

Why’s he so tired?

Are they treating him nicely

Or should they all be fired?”

He wasn’t at all agile,

As they assisted him to the chair

It was as if it would’ve been easier

Just to carry him there.

How hard to leave

Knowing he knows not why,

Its no wonder then

I go home and cry.

Sleep is restless and food not so good

Is it any wonder I’m not in the holiday mood?

My mantra today is God is in control

I fervently pray that He saves my soul.

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SoCS 11-6-21 The Gift

Per Linda G Hill:

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “close eyes and point.” Grab the closest printed material to you when you sit down to write your post, open it up (if it’s a book, flyer, etc.), close your eyes, and point. Whatever your finger lands on, use that as your prompt. Have fun!

I’m currently reading The Testament by John Grisham. So, my prompt then will be The Gift.

I thought about writing on what The Gift means in this story, but decided to let you read the book for yourselves.

Instead, since we went to the mall today, I’ll tell you about the gift I bought (well, Dave did) that almost always serves as The Gift in our annual White Elephant game. I can divulge this information because no one from my family reads my blogs anyway, lol! We have a longstanding relationship with Zales, the jewelry store. Every year around this time, they start giving discounts on featured pieces f jewelry that are quality, but deeply discounted to around $20.

I have bought and given everything from rings to pendants and necklaces that retail at $100 or more. Today, they were practically giving away a beautiful pair of diamond earrings. This will either be The Gift in our White Elephant or an extra gift in case extra, unexpected guests show up. or, who knows, it could be someone’s surprise birthday gift. There will be sales like this all the way up to a week or so before Christmas. It’s nice to have options for gift giving!

Since things have been so crazy and stressful dealing with my dad and his current situation, it was nice to get a break and get one thing crossed off our list of to-do’s. I would go into detail, but maybe I’ll save that for another post.

My own personal copy.

I encourage you all to read The Testament, so far, its been an intriguing story! Politics, legacy, world travel, and a search for the beneficiary make this a great read. Check it out when you have time. 🤗

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SoCS & W.O.T.D Challenges 10-16-21 What Would You Do?

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is ‘if.’ Start your post with the word ‘If.’ Enjoy!”

If you saw a lady in front of Walmart, holding a cardboard sign that read, “Homeless, pregnant, help” what would you do??

That was the situation as we entered our local Walmart this morning on a quest to find Dad some new clothes. It bothered me at first, seeing the lady there and no one was helping her in any way, not talking to her, or leaving her any money.

As we were leaving, I said to my husband, “Someone should take her to a homeless shelter.” I wished we had the time to do it ourselves, and the room, but the car was full of purchases. His response was one I won’t repeat here, but as we drove away, we noticed she had a cell phone, and those aren’t cheap.

What am I to make of all this? It still bothers me, obviously, as IF I don’t have enough problems of my own, but we as a society, are getting so sick of being swindled, I think it has hardened our hearts.

I sure hope if she really needed help, she got it, even though it was plain to see, she had made many bad choices in her life.

But then, that is being kind of judgmental isn’t it. Or is it??

What would you do???